OK, Lord

I've noticed that most of the journal entries nowadays begin with "OK, Lord" or "So, Lord". So have my prayers. You see, I am stuck in front of this huge mountain and I do not know how to move it. So, I now pray with a heart of disperation. A quick update is due:

I am unemployed. The first month was awesome. Now I am bored and frustrated. Can you believe that I have 2 degrees yet I cannot get a job within my chosen career? I cannot either. I want to make a difference in people's lives so I chose a noble profession but maybe I should have chosen something more broad. I am frustrated. I want a career and not a job. But I am bored so I am going to have to do something very soon. I may start to wait tables at a bar or subsitute teach. But I want to be in my chosen career. Patience is a virtue that I do not have right now.

I am also tired of being single! I want to go out on a date. Oh, there is this really attractive guy in this computer lab (I am in the public library because I am too poor to get DSL in my new apartment). Maybe he'll ask me out...Maybe not. He is too hot to not be dating someone already. Also, I look young for my age so he may think I am 20 and pass on approaching me. [Sigh]. And I NEVER approach a guy. I dont have the guts...

Last night, my sister (my new roommate :)) was so incredulous when I told her I'd date a very old man. I have the biggest crush on Douglas Wilder (first black VA Governor). I think he is so handsome and distinguished. I like older men because they have their lives together. Half the men my age are a lost cause. I may be going to the VA Gubernatorial Inaguration Ball if one of my associates gets an invite. He wants to take me. Maybe I can land a really hot and disguished older gentleman then...or at least be introduced to Doug.

I have started my love affair with my guitar again. I am going to get official lessons very soon. I am having fun learning it again although my fingers cramp really badly. It is worth it.

To use this time of unemployment productively, I am planning a mentoring program. My first meeting with my co-leaders is tonight. I really want this to be a minstry targeted at young black women.

Ok, Lord, and the rest of you all out there. I am leaving the public library now...I have some resumes to mail out. The cute guy hasn't said anything to me yet so I live to fight another Singleton's day. LOL.

peace.