Do Not Recycle
My tip for the day: DO NOT RECYCLE. I am a tree hugger so I am not talking about recycling environmentally. Recycling newspapers and soda cans is always good. I am talking about relationships.
Ok, I have a huge problem with recycling. I don’t know why I can not let certain people out of my life. I have been “talking” to Mr. X-Factor again and it has been fun. I love talking with him and spending time with him. In fact I was going to make another trip to see him next weekend. On so many levels he is the One. But you know what? On so many levels he clearly is not. Recycling relationships is almost always bad. I mean there was a valid reason to part ways in the first place so why bother getting back together again when those initial reasons will most likely be the reasons for the next ending? I am foolish and the worst kind of foolish because I love to hopelessly love. It is my weakness. That explains why I have recycled him countless times over an almost 2 year time span. I cannot seem to completely let go. There are always reminders that I should have let that thang stay in the trash heap.
To make a very long story short it turns out that the initial reasons were the final reasons to say good bye AGAIN. This time around was kinda nasty though with “I hate you” and “f**k you” and “leave me the f**k alone” coming from my direction. Don’t worry, I apologized. At least I didn’t say EVERYTHING I was thinking (which was a lot worse, trust me. I have bit of a temper). I think this time around I am just fed up and I can honestly say that I think I am done-at least for a long while….
Ok, I have a huge problem with recycling. I don’t know why I can not let certain people out of my life. I have been “talking” to Mr. X-Factor again and it has been fun. I love talking with him and spending time with him. In fact I was going to make another trip to see him next weekend. On so many levels he is the One. But you know what? On so many levels he clearly is not. Recycling relationships is almost always bad. I mean there was a valid reason to part ways in the first place so why bother getting back together again when those initial reasons will most likely be the reasons for the next ending? I am foolish and the worst kind of foolish because I love to hopelessly love. It is my weakness. That explains why I have recycled him countless times over an almost 2 year time span. I cannot seem to completely let go. There are always reminders that I should have let that thang stay in the trash heap.
To make a very long story short it turns out that the initial reasons were the final reasons to say good bye AGAIN. This time around was kinda nasty though with “I hate you” and “f**k you” and “leave me the f**k alone” coming from my direction. Don’t worry, I apologized. At least I didn’t say EVERYTHING I was thinking (which was a lot worse, trust me. I have bit of a temper). I think this time around I am just fed up and I can honestly say that I think I am done-at least for a long while….
posted by JoiDoe @ 10:26 AM
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