First Entry: A Glimpse Into Life Caught in the 20s

05.20.05. It is raining outside. On a Friday!!! I wish I was wrapped up in covers in my bed but I have to pay my bills and have money to party so I am at work. I like my job but hate my boss. He sucks. I love my life though. Even if I had to work under him my entire life, I still love my life. It is far from what I wish it to be but it is perfect because I have all that I can handle right now. Being in your late 20s puts you in a place where you have to have certain amenties in order for folks to view you as an official adult. It is weird. Like I feel like I should be married, own a house, be on my career track, belong to certain social circles, enjoy stuffy cocktail parties were everyone speaks in whispers, and to basically be a bore. At least that's what I thought being an adult was when I was little. Being boring and just focused on working and maintaining an existence. But alas, I am an adult and life isn't quite like that for me. Sure, I'd love to be in a committed relationship with a committed, loving, gorgeous, attractive, strong, ambitious, honorable, athletic, sensitive, giving, intelligent, Christ-centered MAN but not necessary married to him. I'd love to own my very own home but I don't even know what part of the country I want to live in right now. I want to be on my career track but I can't secure a job in my desired field, urban planning. So, I make due. I have lots of male friends to subsidize what I need from male companionship, I rent an apartment, and I am looking for a new job. I have found that life in the 20s is a life caught between leaving behind 'life on a whim' and reaching up for stability. I am in the midst.